Yey, I'm done with my draft for the IRR of the Committee on Finance. . . One down, three to go! Yahooo!
I'll show my draft to Ma'am Angie maybe later today or tomorrow afternoon. . . Whoa, its 3:30 in the morning!
I better get some sleep now!
Yehey!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
The sweetest dog ever!
Super nag enjoy ako kay Liit, ang sweet niya. . .
ganito kasi yun, everytime na umaalis ako, palagi siyang sumusunod hanggang samay door. . . Then pag naka alis na daw ako, bumabalik na siya sa loob. . . Pero for the past few days, bako na yan ang nangyayari. . . Everytime daw na umaalis ako, susundan niya ako until samay door. . . then kahit wala na ako, he would just sit there and wait. . . Minsan, humihiga na siya sa floor near our door. . . Waiting. . . Aalis lang daw siya dun pag tinawag na or pag masyado na matagal na hindi ako bumabalik. . . Then pag bumalik naman ako, hayun, takbo ever na siya. . . sabay talon sakin and kiss ever na!
Ang sweet. . .
Then one time, umalis ako to buy my food. . . Bumili ako ng burger sa Burger Machine. . . Buy One, Take One pa until now yun so sigurado, solve ang snack ko. . . Hehehehehehe. . . Siguro, mga 30 minutes din ako nawala. . . Pagbalik ko, guess what, Liit was waiting for me the whole time. . . Naka upo lang siya samay door. . . Pagkakita sa akin, hayun, pumasok na sa kuwarto niya at nahiga. . . Touch naman ako, kaya yung extra burger ko, binigay ko na lang sa kanya. . . Sosyal! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Now, everytime na aalis ako, I would tell Liit not to wait for me. . . And sumusunod naman siya. . . Pasok agad siya sa kuwarto niya ang natutulog. . . Pag balik ko, may treat agad siya sa akin. . . :D
La lang, just want to share the sweetness of Liit. . . :D
ganito kasi yun, everytime na umaalis ako, palagi siyang sumusunod hanggang samay door. . . Then pag naka alis na daw ako, bumabalik na siya sa loob. . . Pero for the past few days, bako na yan ang nangyayari. . . Everytime daw na umaalis ako, susundan niya ako until samay door. . . then kahit wala na ako, he would just sit there and wait. . . Minsan, humihiga na siya sa floor near our door. . . Waiting. . . Aalis lang daw siya dun pag tinawag na or pag masyado na matagal na hindi ako bumabalik. . . Then pag bumalik naman ako, hayun, takbo ever na siya. . . sabay talon sakin and kiss ever na!
Ang sweet. . .
Then one time, umalis ako to buy my food. . . Bumili ako ng burger sa Burger Machine. . . Buy One, Take One pa until now yun so sigurado, solve ang snack ko. . . Hehehehehehe. . . Siguro, mga 30 minutes din ako nawala. . . Pagbalik ko, guess what, Liit was waiting for me the whole time. . . Naka upo lang siya samay door. . . Pagkakita sa akin, hayun, pumasok na sa kuwarto niya at nahiga. . . Touch naman ako, kaya yung extra burger ko, binigay ko na lang sa kanya. . . Sosyal! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Now, everytime na aalis ako, I would tell Liit not to wait for me. . . And sumusunod naman siya. . . Pasok agad siya sa kuwarto niya ang natutulog. . . Pag balik ko, may treat agad siya sa akin. . . :D
La lang, just want to share the sweetness of Liit. . . :D
Monday, February 23, 2009
Dust vs. Orb last February 13, 2009
I've been browsing my collections of pictures last U-Week. . . And I was able to notice this strange (can I still consider it as "strange"?) picture. . . Well, the picture I'm talking about was the one taken by Ate Joan last February 13, 2009. . . I really don't want to make a fuzz about it. . . But if you have an idea of I'm making a big deal about it, then you'll be interested to hear about this one. . . Okay, so it was about 6:00 in the evening already when suddenly, the supposedly night sky turned into bright orange. . . Unusual as it may seem, but it really did. . . It was dark already when it all became bright. . . And the result, a beautiful night sky. . .
And so I called Ate Jo from her office and told her that the sky was picture perfect. . . She really loved to take some pictures of sunset and the sky. . . Artistic!
Anyway, after browsing the pictures, I noticed this little white circles / ball like figure. . . Well, to some, they say that its just dust. . . Indeed, "most of them" were just dust particle. . . Some of them, well, not! For those who knew about orbs, probably, you can tell which is which. . .
On the first picture, you can see four markers. . . Out of these four markers, three of which are dust particles and the other, an orb. . . On the far right, you can see a very light circle. . . That's a newly formed orb. . . A newbie in the "other" world. . .
The second picture, you can see another marker. . . What do you think, Orb or Dust???
And so I called Ate Jo from her office and told her that the sky was picture perfect. . . She really loved to take some pictures of sunset and the sky. . . Artistic!
Anyway, after browsing the pictures, I noticed this little white circles / ball like figure. . . Well, to some, they say that its just dust. . . Indeed, "most of them" were just dust particle. . . Some of them, well, not! For those who knew about orbs, probably, you can tell which is which. . .
On the first picture, you can see four markers. . . Out of these four markers, three of which are dust particles and the other, an orb. . . On the far right, you can see a very light circle. . . That's a newly formed orb. . . A newbie in the "other" world. . .
The second picture, you can see another marker. . . What do you think, Orb or Dust???
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Answer: Its an orb. . . Well, I think I know who that orb was. . .
;D
And noticed that its almost right in the same spot for the two pictures?
:D
Anyway, you can read more about this one on my multiply blog. . .
http://sugatangpuso.multiply.com/journal/item/71/Understanding_Ghost_and_Orbs
Photo: http://babytanya16.multiply.com/photos/album/115/Pre-Valentine_Sunset
;D
And noticed that its almost right in the same spot for the two pictures?
:D
Anyway, you can read more about this one on my multiply blog. . .
http://sugatangpuso.multiply.com/journal/item/71/Understanding_Ghost_and_Orbs
Photo: http://babytanya16.multiply.com/photos/album/115/Pre-Valentine_Sunset
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Astig na Quote
I've been browsing the net when I suddenly read this quote. It really caught my attention and thought that it would be nice for me to share this to you. . . :D
"Masakit ang hindi maintindihan. .. para kang nagiisa sa mundo, naghahanap ng kakampi... mga taong makakaunawa at tatanggapin ka ng buo. Oo tao tayo pero mahirap magpakatao samantalang walang kahirap hirap magpakahayop...."
Monday, February 16, 2009
Stay
Stay - Carol Banawa
I want you to stay
Never go away from me
Stay forever
But now, now that you're gone
All I can do is pray for you
To be here beside me again
*Why did you have to leave me
When you said that love will conquer all
Why did you have to leave me
When you said that dreaming
Was as good as reality
And now I must move on
Trying to forget all the memories
Of you near me
But I can't let go of your love
That has taught me to hold on
I want you to stay never go away from me
Stay forever
But now, now that you're gone
All I can do is pray for you
To be here beside me again
(Repeat *)
And now I must move one
Trying to forget all the memories
Of you near me
But I can't let go of your love
That has taught me to hold on
(Repeat * twice)
Coda:
I want you to stay never go away from me
Stay forever
I want to stay but I have to go my way
Oohhhmmm
Doubts. . .
I've been thinking since last night of some freaking questions. I know someone would be raising his brows once he started reading this post. But I just can't help it. I kept on searching for answers. All night, I kept on asking myself if all of this are true. That its not a result of some stupid imagination.
Heavens forbid, but is he really gone? Or was he just hiding?
Hiding?
From whom?
Why?
Is it worth it?
If he is really hiding, if he's still alive, why do he need to hide? To make us suffer like this. All the sleepless nights, the pain and agony and the loss, would mean nothing!
I hate to say this, but it would be much better if he's gone rather than to know in the end that he is still here. Hiding.
Well, hiding is the right word, for me, to use.
But if he's still alive, why do I see some signs that he's not. That he's really gone?
But then again, I can talk to him even if he's still alive, but with one condition, that he should be unconscious. I think he is. But how can I see him them? I'm able to see him in school more often since the 12th of February. If he's alive, just hypothetically, then how come I am able to see him at school. His spirit is not supposed to be roaming around.
Shit!
Is he or is he not?
I guess the safest answer I can have right now is that we are thinking and acting this way because of his untimely death and that it caught everyone in shock. That we all wishes (or hope) that he is still alive. That he never left us after all.
Only one person can answer all of this. Just one person. But the problem is, he's either hiding . . . or dead.
Heavens forbid, but is he really gone? Or was he just hiding?
Hiding?
From whom?
Why?
Is it worth it?
If he is really hiding, if he's still alive, why do he need to hide? To make us suffer like this. All the sleepless nights, the pain and agony and the loss, would mean nothing!
I hate to say this, but it would be much better if he's gone rather than to know in the end that he is still here. Hiding.
Well, hiding is the right word, for me, to use.
But if he's still alive, why do I see some signs that he's not. That he's really gone?
But then again, I can talk to him even if he's still alive, but with one condition, that he should be unconscious. I think he is. But how can I see him them? I'm able to see him in school more often since the 12th of February. If he's alive, just hypothetically, then how come I am able to see him at school. His spirit is not supposed to be roaming around.
Shit!
Is he or is he not?
I guess the safest answer I can have right now is that we are thinking and acting this way because of his untimely death and that it caught everyone in shock. That we all wishes (or hope) that he is still alive. That he never left us after all.
Only one person can answer all of this. Just one person. But the problem is, he's either hiding . . . or dead.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Jae Fen Yoon's Last blog
STILL TRYING
Posted last February 6, 2009 at 12:14 am
I'm still trying to find myself.
I've been lost. Lost into nothingness. I thought I already knew myself. But I guess I was wrong.
Sorry to those people I hurt. Those people I left behind. Sorry to my family who had been awfully worried about me. Also, sorry for making you shed another tear, my little dark angel. Sorry.
But enough of it. Its now time to say thank you for always being there beside me. Thank you for the wonderful messages, though some of it broke my heart after realizing how much it causes you pain, but still, it only showed me that you love me now. Thank you.
To my brothers, the three J's of my life, Kuya Jawu, Ja and Jr. Thank you for the concern and sorry for making you worry about me.
To my mom, sorry for making you cry. Sorry if I gave you sleepless nights when i tried to run away.
But hope that you all understand that all I wanted is to find the "me" I used or supposed to be.
But here's what I can say for now, I am very thankful for having you all in my life and it made me love all of you more.
Jae Fen Yoon
http://jaefenyoon.blogspot.com/2009/02/still-trying.html
[Squall: This was his last post. Posted during the first 14 minutes of my birthday. This is the most wonderful gift that Jem had given me for the last 19 years I've known him. Just by reading the lines: "To my brothers, the three J's of my life, Kuya Jawu, Ja and Jr. Thank you for the concern and sorry for making you worry about me." and "I am very thankful for having you all in my life and it made me love all of you more." makes me want to cry buckets of tears again. Thank you for considering me as one of your brother. Thank you so much.
Shoti, I will always remember you. Specially those times that I needed someone to talk to and to share my thoughts. Thank you for listening and understanding my stupidity.
WTF, my eyes are all wet now and I can't see my monitor! ]
Posted last February 6, 2009 at 12:14 am
I'm still trying to find myself.
I've been lost. Lost into nothingness. I thought I already knew myself. But I guess I was wrong.
Sorry to those people I hurt. Those people I left behind. Sorry to my family who had been awfully worried about me. Also, sorry for making you shed another tear, my little dark angel. Sorry.
But enough of it. Its now time to say thank you for always being there beside me. Thank you for the wonderful messages, though some of it broke my heart after realizing how much it causes you pain, but still, it only showed me that you love me now. Thank you.
To my brothers, the three J's of my life, Kuya Jawu, Ja and Jr. Thank you for the concern and sorry for making you worry about me.
To my mom, sorry for making you cry. Sorry if I gave you sleepless nights when i tried to run away.
But hope that you all understand that all I wanted is to find the "me" I used or supposed to be.
But here's what I can say for now, I am very thankful for having you all in my life and it made me love all of you more.
Jae Fen Yoon
http://jaefenyoon.blogspot.com/2009/02/still-trying.html
[Squall: This was his last post. Posted during the first 14 minutes of my birthday. This is the most wonderful gift that Jem had given me for the last 19 years I've known him. Just by reading the lines: "To my brothers, the three J's of my life, Kuya Jawu, Ja and Jr. Thank you for the concern and sorry for making you worry about me." and "I am very thankful for having you all in my life and it made me love all of you more." makes me want to cry buckets of tears again. Thank you for considering me as one of your brother. Thank you so much.
Shoti, I will always remember you. Specially those times that I needed someone to talk to and to share my thoughts. Thank you for listening and understanding my stupidity.
WTF, my eyes are all wet now and I can't see my monitor! ]
Thursday, February 12, 2009
The End
I've been staring at my screen for almost an hour now. Naka ilang beses na din ako mag palit ng mga titles. The options?
1. Point Blank
2. Con tu adios, ti llevas, mi corazon. Adios Shoti
3. Dead End
4. The End
Well, I settled for the fourth one while making the rest of the options as my sub titles.
Hmmmmm. . . Now, I really don't know how to start this blog. I'm in the mood to write, but not in the mood to think of the words/thoughts to write.
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Everything is blank for me. Para akong na hypnotized. I really don't have anything in mind. Okay, well I have something that coming into my mind. But the problem is, how to express it here.
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Sigh. :(
I hope tama yung spanish ko. And the literal translation? With your goodbye, you take with you my heart. Goodbye Little Brother.
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Earlier this morning, someone so dear to me passed away. My little brother passed away. Jae Fen Yoon passed away earlier this morning. Si Jaja ang tumawag sa akin to break the devastating news. He called me around four or five in the morning. Crying. I can hear him sob while he talks on the phone. He told me that Jem was already gone and that he didn't make it. Hindi na niya nakayanan.
The cause of death, SALAD!
Yeah, Salad lang ang rason ng pagkamatay ni Jem. But this is not an ordinary salad. Its a salad na may halong lobster.
Or was it a lobster salad?
Maybe few of you would ask, so whats the big deal?
Here's the deal, Jem have an allergy with lobsters. Shell fish to be exact. Same with me, by the way. And this time, he had a severe allergy attack from it. There had been an inflammation of his throat to the extent na nahihirapan na siya huminga. Because of this, nahimatay siya. This happened yesterday afternoon.
I was informed about his situation around 8 or 9 in the evening. By that time, nasa hospital na sa Hong Kong si Jem, along with Jaja. Also, by that time, he's still unconscious. Wala pa rin siyang malay and naka ventilator siya. The first option daw ng doctors was butasan ang throat ni Jem for him to be able to breath. But then, Ja, upon Tita's advice, suggested if its okay to use ventilators instead. The doctor agreed but with the condition that if this wont work out, then they have to make a hole. HOLEy cow!
DEAD END
Last night, masaya pa kaming nagbibiruan nina Ate Jo and Xing. We even talked about the "plans" by the 14th. Well, only Ate Jo and I were busy talking about it since its a surprise for Xing.
The plans.
Hayz.
Ang napaka ganda and napaka sweet na plano ni Jem this Valentines day for Xing. Want to know about it? Okay, heres the plan.
Jem wanted to surprise Xing this coming 14th. Uuwi siya, with Jaja, this Valentines for him to meet Xing in person. Well, they have something din kasi. I know they have. Anyway, so yun, surprise sana. Isipin mo, from Mainland China, to Hong Kong then finally to Naga City. He'll travel all the way from China to Naga just to meet Xing.
Then, as part of the plan, pag dating nila dito, he'll prepare a Dinner Date with Xing at their place in Villa Concepcion. Of course, kasama kami, pero siyempre, exclusive and garden para sa kanilang dalawa. While the rest of us enjoy the pleasure of the SALA! Then, He'll be the one to cook the food since he's good in cooking (may restaurant kasi sila and they own one franchise of Yellow Cab and another food chain in Manila).
Also, nagpaturo siya kay Jaja on how to play the piano. Xing knows how to play the piano. Kaya just to impress her, magpapaturo daw siya. And the songs, This I Promise You and Sway. Why those songs? The former was Jem's song for Xing. While the latter was Xing's song. May nirecord kasi si Xing na song which she sang herself and posted it in Imeem.
Then he'll buy daw ng isang boquet of white roses. Bakit white roses? 'Cause it symbolizes purity daw.
So to wrap it all up, the plan was:
1. Dinner Date. [Informal date daw sabi ni xing, cause I asked her with some options.]
2. Flowers [and not chocolates, according to xing]
3. Violin [and not piano. Jem plays the violin and any other string instruments. I guess, xing wanted to hear Jem play the violin for her.]
4. A surprise homecoming this Februray 14, 2009.
Then he even told me that he wanted to meet Xing's friends and even the family. Sabi ko na lang, he should take it out step at a time. Now, all those plans were sucked into oblivion! Nawala na ng parang bula. Isang magandang pangarap na sa isang iglap ang biglang gumuho.
I know the plan was simple or so, but its the effort that counts right?
All of the happy memories, the laughters, the 'Kakulitan', and everything else has come to a tragic end. Tragic cause at the very young age, he passed away. Just the thought of him in the hospital, with the ventilators, heart sensor and everything. Or even him with a hole in his throat, gives me goose bumps and makes me want to cry. I can't see my shoti to be in that state. or worse, dead. No, he's not dead. He's just in a vacation wherein theres no means of communication. No internet connection, no mobile signal. A very secluded place in. . . in. . . in Africa. Or. . . or. . . in the Latin Americas or in a place the we never thought existed. Yeah, thats right, he's just gone into a very long vacation. I know I'll be able to see him. I know. Someday well see each other once more.
Right now, I cant help myself but cry. I lost a very special part of my system. My life. A dear brother. A sweet brother.
Shoti, wherever you are. Don't worry too much about tita, or Ja, or Kuya Jawu, or Me. We'll be okay here. I know its hard but we'll be able to cope up with things. As for Xing, don't worry about her, Ate Joan, Jett, Khrisna, Koren, Lhet and I are here for her. Well make sure to keep her smiling. Yan naman ang gusto mo diba? To see her always smile. About your last request, I'll take care of it. I promise.
Shoti, I will surely miss you a lot. Say hi to Grace, Kuya Mike and Mamay for me up there will you? Pati na din kay Bro and Nanay. I know you're happy cause your with Them already. Just look after us, okay. And be her guardian angel.
Xing, if you'll be able to read this [I know you will, the moment you wake up], always remember na andito lang kami. Remember the status message of Ate Joan, we cried with you kanina. And this time, we'll make sure that we'll be there for you no matter what happen. We'll find a way to make you smile. And thank you so much for making my shoti happy for his remaining month. I know na 28 days palang kayo magkakilala but inspite of it, you already became a very special part of Jem. You it naman, right? You made him change and gain more of his self confidence. Thank you for all of the things that you gave to Jem.
Best, I know that your so down right now. I'm sorry if wala ako jan sa tabi mo ngayon to comfort you. But I just want you to know na andito lang ako, and my family to support you. Basta, never lose faith. I know there's something behind all these things. I know Bro has a plan kung bakit niya kinuha agad si Jem. And I think he already had fulfilled his purpose now. Best, just take good care of yourself and always pray. Just remember that Jem never left us at all. He's always with us. All we have to do is look deep within our hearts. Thats the safest place where he can stay right now. The safest place next to the Almighty. I know you'll be able to cope up with what happened, best. If not now, I know, soon you will. Just remember that I'm always here for you.
For those people who are interested to view Jem's blog, to know his thoughts and on how he fall in love, you may visit his blog or multiply site.
Now, let me just quote a song which reminded me of him.
1. Point Blank
2. Con tu adios, ti llevas, mi corazon. Adios Shoti
3. Dead End
4. The End
Well, I settled for the fourth one while making the rest of the options as my sub titles.
Hmmmmm. . . Now, I really don't know how to start this blog. I'm in the mood to write, but not in the mood to think of the words/thoughts to write.
POINT BLANK
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Everything is blank for me. Para akong na hypnotized. I really don't have anything in mind. Okay, well I have something that coming into my mind. But the problem is, how to express it here.
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Sigh. :(
CON TU ADIOS, TI LLEVAS MI CORAZON. ADIOS SHOTI
I hope tama yung spanish ko. And the literal translation? With your goodbye, you take with you my heart. Goodbye Little Brother.
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Earlier this morning, someone so dear to me passed away. My little brother passed away. Jae Fen Yoon passed away earlier this morning. Si Jaja ang tumawag sa akin to break the devastating news. He called me around four or five in the morning. Crying. I can hear him sob while he talks on the phone. He told me that Jem was already gone and that he didn't make it. Hindi na niya nakayanan.
The cause of death, SALAD!
Yeah, Salad lang ang rason ng pagkamatay ni Jem. But this is not an ordinary salad. Its a salad na may halong lobster.
Or was it a lobster salad?
Maybe few of you would ask, so whats the big deal?
Here's the deal, Jem have an allergy with lobsters. Shell fish to be exact. Same with me, by the way. And this time, he had a severe allergy attack from it. There had been an inflammation of his throat to the extent na nahihirapan na siya huminga. Because of this, nahimatay siya. This happened yesterday afternoon.
I was informed about his situation around 8 or 9 in the evening. By that time, nasa hospital na sa Hong Kong si Jem, along with Jaja. Also, by that time, he's still unconscious. Wala pa rin siyang malay and naka ventilator siya. The first option daw ng doctors was butasan ang throat ni Jem for him to be able to breath. But then, Ja, upon Tita's advice, suggested if its okay to use ventilators instead. The doctor agreed but with the condition that if this wont work out, then they have to make a hole. HOLEy cow!
DEAD ENDLast night, masaya pa kaming nagbibiruan nina Ate Jo and Xing. We even talked about the "plans" by the 14th. Well, only Ate Jo and I were busy talking about it since its a surprise for Xing.
The plans.
Hayz.
Ang napaka ganda and napaka sweet na plano ni Jem this Valentines day for Xing. Want to know about it? Okay, heres the plan.
Jem wanted to surprise Xing this coming 14th. Uuwi siya, with Jaja, this Valentines for him to meet Xing in person. Well, they have something din kasi. I know they have. Anyway, so yun, surprise sana. Isipin mo, from Mainland China, to Hong Kong then finally to Naga City. He'll travel all the way from China to Naga just to meet Xing.
Then, as part of the plan, pag dating nila dito, he'll prepare a Dinner Date with Xing at their place in Villa Concepcion. Of course, kasama kami, pero siyempre, exclusive and garden para sa kanilang dalawa. While the rest of us enjoy the pleasure of the SALA! Then, He'll be the one to cook the food since he's good in cooking (may restaurant kasi sila and they own one franchise of Yellow Cab and another food chain in Manila).
Also, nagpaturo siya kay Jaja on how to play the piano. Xing knows how to play the piano. Kaya just to impress her, magpapaturo daw siya. And the songs, This I Promise You and Sway. Why those songs? The former was Jem's song for Xing. While the latter was Xing's song. May nirecord kasi si Xing na song which she sang herself and posted it in Imeem.
Then he'll buy daw ng isang boquet of white roses. Bakit white roses? 'Cause it symbolizes purity daw.
So to wrap it all up, the plan was:
1. Dinner Date. [Informal date daw sabi ni xing, cause I asked her with some options.]
2. Flowers [and not chocolates, according to xing]
3. Violin [and not piano. Jem plays the violin and any other string instruments. I guess, xing wanted to hear Jem play the violin for her.]
4. A surprise homecoming this Februray 14, 2009.
Then he even told me that he wanted to meet Xing's friends and even the family. Sabi ko na lang, he should take it out step at a time. Now, all those plans were sucked into oblivion! Nawala na ng parang bula. Isang magandang pangarap na sa isang iglap ang biglang gumuho.
I know the plan was simple or so, but its the effort that counts right?
THE END
All of the happy memories, the laughters, the 'Kakulitan', and everything else has come to a tragic end. Tragic cause at the very young age, he passed away. Just the thought of him in the hospital, with the ventilators, heart sensor and everything. Or even him with a hole in his throat, gives me goose bumps and makes me want to cry. I can't see my shoti to be in that state. or worse, dead. No, he's not dead. He's just in a vacation wherein theres no means of communication. No internet connection, no mobile signal. A very secluded place in. . . in. . . in Africa. Or. . . or. . . in the Latin Americas or in a place the we never thought existed. Yeah, thats right, he's just gone into a very long vacation. I know I'll be able to see him. I know. Someday well see each other once more.
Right now, I cant help myself but cry. I lost a very special part of my system. My life. A dear brother. A sweet brother.
Shoti, wherever you are. Don't worry too much about tita, or Ja, or Kuya Jawu, or Me. We'll be okay here. I know its hard but we'll be able to cope up with things. As for Xing, don't worry about her, Ate Joan, Jett, Khrisna, Koren, Lhet and I are here for her. Well make sure to keep her smiling. Yan naman ang gusto mo diba? To see her always smile. About your last request, I'll take care of it. I promise.
Shoti, I will surely miss you a lot. Say hi to Grace, Kuya Mike and Mamay for me up there will you? Pati na din kay Bro and Nanay. I know you're happy cause your with Them already. Just look after us, okay. And be her guardian angel.
Xing, if you'll be able to read this [I know you will, the moment you wake up], always remember na andito lang kami. Remember the status message of Ate Joan, we cried with you kanina. And this time, we'll make sure that we'll be there for you no matter what happen. We'll find a way to make you smile. And thank you so much for making my shoti happy for his remaining month. I know na 28 days palang kayo magkakilala but inspite of it, you already became a very special part of Jem. You it naman, right? You made him change and gain more of his self confidence. Thank you for all of the things that you gave to Jem.
Best, I know that your so down right now. I'm sorry if wala ako jan sa tabi mo ngayon to comfort you. But I just want you to know na andito lang ako, and my family to support you. Basta, never lose faith. I know there's something behind all these things. I know Bro has a plan kung bakit niya kinuha agad si Jem. And I think he already had fulfilled his purpose now. Best, just take good care of yourself and always pray. Just remember that Jem never left us at all. He's always with us. All we have to do is look deep within our hearts. Thats the safest place where he can stay right now. The safest place next to the Almighty. I know you'll be able to cope up with what happened, best. If not now, I know, soon you will. Just remember that I'm always here for you.
For those people who are interested to view Jem's blog, to know his thoughts and on how he fall in love, you may visit his blog or multiply site.
Now, let me just quote a song which reminded me of him.
"If life is so short, why won't you let me love you before we run out of time.
If love is so strong, why won't you take the chance before our time has gone."
If love is so strong, why won't you take the chance before our time has gone."
Finally, a poem which he wrote. I guess, this suited well. His way of saying his goodbye.
Goodbye
I'm sorry for everything I had said,
the thought of me making you cry repeats in my head.
I'm sorry I can never make you happy,
inside I feel so crappy.
I'm sorry for wasting your time,
wanted to make you have a happy life.
I'm sorry for I have failed,
never do anything right.
I'm sorry that I had to say sorry
I promise my love, my world, my girl, my perfect dark angel,
that I would never say those awful things
what hurts the most is that I broke my promise, made you cry,
most of all my dark angel
I'm sorry that I have to say goodbye.
[http://jaefenyoon.blogspot.com/2009/02/goodbye.html]
I'm sorry for everything I had said,
the thought of me making you cry repeats in my head.
I'm sorry I can never make you happy,
inside I feel so crappy.
I'm sorry for wasting your time,
wanted to make you have a happy life.
I'm sorry for I have failed,
never do anything right.
I'm sorry that I had to say sorry
I promise my love, my world, my girl, my perfect dark angel,
that I would never say those awful things
what hurts the most is that I broke my promise, made you cry,
most of all my dark angel
I'm sorry that I have to say goodbye.
[http://jaefenyoon.blogspot.com/2009/02/goodbye.html]
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Naman!
Weeeeeeeee! Super ewan si Ms. UNC! Dai ko feel! Mayong Question and Answer! Ahahahahahahaha! In fairness, lufet ni Trix! Thats my girl!
And as usual, CBA ang gana! Wahahahahaha! Lafa kaya ang nursing!
Super windang ako sa Laptop ko now. . . Siguro, naka 4 o 5 beses na akong nag reinstall since yesterday! Huhuhuhu!
And lastly,and saru jan! Pinanganaan ako sa blog niya! Grrrrrrrrr! Puwesssssssss! Humanda ka ta wiwindangon taka talaga! And correction, bako lang si Jett ang manlalatiksa imuh for sure! For all you know, baka buong Organzation pah!
Bwahahahahahahahahahaha!
>:P
And as usual, CBA ang gana! Wahahahahaha! Lafa kaya ang nursing!
Super windang ako sa Laptop ko now. . . Siguro, naka 4 o 5 beses na akong nag reinstall since yesterday! Huhuhuhu!
And lastly,and saru jan! Pinanganaan ako sa blog niya! Grrrrrrrrr! Puwesssssssss! Humanda ka ta wiwindangon taka talaga! And correction, bako lang si Jett ang manlalatiksa imuh for sure! For all you know, baka buong Organzation pah!
Bwahahahahahahahahahaha!
>:P
Monday, February 9, 2009
Thanks!
And so my Birthday came to an end at last. The 6th of February already ended but I never got the chance to say "thank you" to those who greeted me. Thanks to the following:
1. My Family
a. Mama
b. Papa
c. Ate Belen
d. Jastine
2. Cherrie
3. Jae Ha
4. Jae Fen
5. Jae Wu
6. Mary Joy
7. Papa Tony and Mama Rita
8. My PCO (or should I say ASPF) Family
a. Onin
b. Jhord
c. Cecil
d. Ron
e. Ching
f. Khrisna
g. Koren
h. Adel
i. April
j. Jett
k. Nhel
l. Jazz
m. Joni
n. Princess
o. Kim
p. May Ann
q. Donna
r. Angelica
s. Jiji
t. Lorna
u. Icay
9. My Guidance Staff
a. Ma'am Shie
b. Ma'am Angie
c. Ma'am Gayle
d. Ate Joan
10.My College of Law Folks
a. Jay
b. Lhei
c. Shee
d. Julz
11.Jm
12.Antonette
13.Maechelle
14.Anti Lilia
15.Arvin
16.Susan
17.Si mga Sunog Baga kan Market
18.Lyza
19.Ervs
20.Julie Ann
Hope I didn't forget anyone. Kung Meron man, salamat pow!
Next. Thanks sa mga gifts! Weeeeee!
1. Sa new Phone - Mom
2. Sa ice cream - Papa
3. Sa Dogs!
- Jae Ha (For giving me Gizmo which eventually goes to Jastine. :D)
- Jae Fen (For giving me Hersheys)
Lastly. Thanks to Nanay, Mama and BRO! Thanks for another year!
Hope I'll be able to share it with you for the years to come.
1. My Family
a. Mama
b. Papa
c. Ate Belen
d. Jastine
2. Cherrie
3. Jae Ha
4. Jae Fen
5. Jae Wu
6. Mary Joy
7. Papa Tony and Mama Rita
8. My PCO (or should I say ASPF) Family
a. Onin
b. Jhord
c. Cecil
d. Ron
e. Ching
f. Khrisna
g. Koren
h. Adel
i. April
j. Jett
k. Nhel
l. Jazz
m. Joni
n. Princess
o. Kim
p. May Ann
q. Donna
r. Angelica
s. Jiji
t. Lorna
u. Icay
9. My Guidance Staff
a. Ma'am Shie
b. Ma'am Angie
c. Ma'am Gayle
d. Ate Joan
10.My College of Law Folks
a. Jay
b. Lhei
c. Shee
d. Julz
11.Jm
12.Antonette
13.Maechelle
14.Anti Lilia
15.Arvin
16.Susan
17.Si mga Sunog Baga kan Market
18.Lyza
19.Ervs
20.Julie Ann
Hope I didn't forget anyone. Kung Meron man, salamat pow!
Next. Thanks sa mga gifts! Weeeeee!
1. Sa new Phone - Mom
2. Sa ice cream - Papa
3. Sa Dogs!
- Jae Ha (For giving me Gizmo which eventually goes to Jastine. :D)
- Jae Fen (For giving me Hersheys)
Lastly. Thanks to Nanay, Mama and BRO! Thanks for another year!
Hope I'll be able to share it with you for the years to come.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
10 Things We Should Know About Love
Well, again, another hangover from the Sunday Morning Interview in DWNX! Hayz!
So, heres the 10 things that we should know about love. Just some wild thoughts na bigla ko lang naisipan. :D
1.Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional abuse are not love.
2.Love is not manipulative. It should not be used to get others to do what you want i.e " You would do it if you loved me "
3.Love is an intense feeling of caring for another person. It can take many different forms i.e romantic, friendly, familial but it is always about caring.
4.Although it is true that a big part of love is putting another person's happiness ahead of yours , this never includes compromising your values or being untrue to yourself.
5.If somebody asks you to do something that you don't want to do in order to " prove" your love, they do not love you the way you might think they do. When you love someone you don't ask the person to sacrifice a part of themselves for another person in the name of that love.
6. The true measure of love of romantic love is commitment and trust not lust for love.
7.It is possible to feel romantic love for more than one person given at a time. Just think, if it is possible for you to love both of your parents at the same time why would it be impossible to feel romantic love for two people at a same time? Don't beat yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this situation. Be sure to remain single and be open and honest with all parties about feelings and confusion.
8. SEX IS NOT LOVE AND LOVE IS NOT SEX. Sex can be a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.
9.Romantic love can always fade away like a morning mist.
10.Love should make you feel happy,secure and appreciated. Children knows more about the purity of love than adults.. we always tend to forget...
Reactions please. . .
So, heres the 10 things that we should know about love. Just some wild thoughts na bigla ko lang naisipan. :D
1.Love does not hurt. Physical and/or emotional abuse are not love.
2.Love is not manipulative. It should not be used to get others to do what you want i.e " You would do it if you loved me "
3.Love is an intense feeling of caring for another person. It can take many different forms i.e romantic, friendly, familial but it is always about caring.
4.Although it is true that a big part of love is putting another person's happiness ahead of yours , this never includes compromising your values or being untrue to yourself.
5.If somebody asks you to do something that you don't want to do in order to " prove" your love, they do not love you the way you might think they do. When you love someone you don't ask the person to sacrifice a part of themselves for another person in the name of that love.
6. The true measure of love of romantic love is commitment and trust not lust for love.
7.It is possible to feel romantic love for more than one person given at a time. Just think, if it is possible for you to love both of your parents at the same time why would it be impossible to feel romantic love for two people at a same time? Don't beat yourself up emotionally if you find yourself in this situation. Be sure to remain single and be open and honest with all parties about feelings and confusion.
8. SEX IS NOT LOVE AND LOVE IS NOT SEX. Sex can be a part of romantic love but it is never mandatory.
9.Romantic love can always fade away like a morning mist.
10.Love should make you feel happy,secure and appreciated. Children knows more about the purity of love than adults.. we always tend to forget...
Reactions please. . .
Monday, February 2, 2009
Three ways to attract true love
(1)You must believe you are able to attract true love.
This is important! In order to attract your true love, not just any type of lovers, to come into your life, you have to believe you are able to attract the right person into your life. True love comes to you not because of chance. Instead, it comes to you because of who you are. It comes 'through' you, it does not come to you. You attract the people in your life because of who you are. If you are someone who is always cheery, generous, kind, and hardworking, then it is very likely you will attract people who have one or more of your positive attributes. Whoever you attract into your lives is a reflection of who you are at that moment. Thus, if you are someone who is always doubtful of your own ability and capability to meet the right person, then it is very likely you will attract the wrong person into your life!
(2)Love others who come into your life at this moment.
Being loving to others is perfect love, not just wanting love. Open up your heart and give your love to others as well while you are waiting for your someone special to enter your life. When you open up and give more love, more love will return and be given you too. This is the law of give and receive. When you go outside and socialize, do not go with the intention of only wanting to find love, or to find your Mr/Ms Right. Instead, take an interest in all those that you encounter, be aware of their welfare and needs as well. If you start to take an interest in other people's welfare and needs instead of only your own, more people will be attracted to you. So, detach yourself from the feeling that you want to find that someone special. The right person will definitely come to you one day and be attracted to you because of who you are. He or she might must be around in a corner thinking : "Hey, I want to get to know this person who is always looking so bright and cheery! How can I approach him/her?"
(3)Expect less from other people and give more instead.
As you give more and more love to others, be careful not to become too much focused on your own wants and needs. In wanting or expecting to experience the love we want, we suffer. We crave, and we cling to what we do not have and we even refuse to let go what we have clung to. Your giving should not come with any conditions. Instead, the love you give should want less and less. As your love wants less and less, ironically you will find more love coming your way, even without you asking for it.
Give true love, so that it opens up and embrace the world. Very soon, you will find that someone special entering your life. It is not by chance that this person has entered your life, but you have cultivated the 'seeds' to bring him/her to you, not just any type of person, but the right and true one for you. And after he/she has entered your life, continue to cultivate even more 'seeds' of love for everyone around you, and you will find that you can easily create the 'magical' relationship that you desire.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Patambay Saint Rapper - Saint Rapper
Someone sent me this song... try ko daw pakinggan if I want to laugh. . . When i clicked on the link and listen to the song! Yun na! Laugh na to the max! And nung nag browse pa ako a little further, nakita ko itong song! Wahahahahahaha! Another laugh! Kaya hayun, sabi ko, why not post it here din! Ahahahahahahahahaha!
patambay saint rapper - saint rapper
patambay saint rapper - saint rapper
LYRICS
mga tambay lang kame sawa sa babae
mga babaeng manloloko peneperahan lang kame
kaya ngayon bakla na lang ang aming iibigin
masarap magmahal ang bakla o kaysarap
[V1]
sinasambul ang puso ko ay lagi ng sugatin
sineseryoso ko baket ako iniiwanan
kaya ngayon nagising na ko sa katotohanan
na lolokohin lang kame ng mga kababaihan
kaya ngayon napagpasyahan na bakla aking iibigin
at ipapadama ko ang himig ng aking dadamin
sa kanya oo nga nga at hindi sa isang babae
dahil ang puso ko ay kanilang sinabutahe
para bang akoy isang laruin na kanilang tinapakpak
pag katapos pagsawaan kanilang tatalikuran
its so unfare kaya bakla na lang ang iibigin
kaya ngayon pakinggan nyu para sa inyo itong awitin
[CHORUS]
[V2]
hinanakit sa babae ang dahilan kung bakit
nagmahal ako ng tulad nya kahit sya ay pangit
at di na pinagkait at sa akin hindi lumapit
kaya hanggang ngayon virgin pa ang aking pwet
at alam ko namang wala akong kahati
di ko sya mabubuntis pagkat pareho kami ng are
grabe buong buhay nya ay sa akin binigay
lahat lahat kanyang inalay basta wag akong mawalay
di na kita iiwan kahit na ikay bakla
bastat tiwala mo sa akin singkil lang ng tala
at totoong relasyon natin ay parang ginto mahal kita
wag lang sana kong magkatulo
[CHORUS]
[V3]
nasulat ko ang kantang to dahil sa galit
pagkat sa tuwing nagmamahal puso koy napupunit
ginawa ko naman ang lahat sa kanya lang inilaan
binigay ang nais na luho patiya ay katawan
pero kapalit nito isa pa lang kataksilan
at nagawa pa niya na ko pagtawanan
kaya ngayon si lhenjack labis ang pagiyak
puso koy parang nasagasaan ng limang milyong truck
sa isip ko tumatak ang sakit na natamo
kaya nag disisyon tuloy ang puso na laging bigo
na bakla na lang ang iibigin ko
di na ko masasaktan nagka pera pa ako
[CHORUS]
[V4]
isang bakla ang iibigin habang buhay
sa kanya ko lang inalay ang puso kong makulay
sya ang nagbigay ng tawa at saya
pag ibig kong ito sa kanya lang lumigaya
kaysa sa gf ko na wala namang pake
nagmahal ako sa kanya ng walang silbe
kaya sa isang bakla ako ay nagmahal
kahit sa ibang girl pagibig ko ay matumal
kahit karumaldumal pa ang kanyang pagmumuka
basta wag lang nya kong gawing ka awa awa
kaya sa bigo sa mga babae dyan
umibig ng bakla nakakalat lang yan dyan
[CHORUS]
[V5]
ayoko ng umibig na kahit na sinu pa
kasi ako sayo ay ok nat akoy sayo na
bastat ang yong responsibility ay wag limutin
wala kang ibang gagawin kundi akoy pasayahin
ako sayo ay happy kasi lagi akong busog
hindi mo ako ginugutom cause takot kang pabugbug
sa buhay ko ikaw ang pumapapel na yaya
pero kahit ganun hindi pagpapalit sa iba
pero wag kang umasa na sakin ka makaisa
bago tayo magtabi sa kama mag paopera
o diba hitech tayo ay modern na lover
pagdumikit ka sakin sisigaw ako holdaper
mga tambay lang kame sawa sa babae
mga babaeng manloloko peneperahan lang kame
kaya ngayon bakla na lang ang aming iibigin
masarap magmahal ang bakla o kaysarap
[V1]
sinasambul ang puso ko ay lagi ng sugatin
sineseryoso ko baket ako iniiwanan
kaya ngayon nagising na ko sa katotohanan
na lolokohin lang kame ng mga kababaihan
kaya ngayon napagpasyahan na bakla aking iibigin
at ipapadama ko ang himig ng aking dadamin
sa kanya oo nga nga at hindi sa isang babae
dahil ang puso ko ay kanilang sinabutahe
para bang akoy isang laruin na kanilang tinapakpak
pag katapos pagsawaan kanilang tatalikuran
its so unfare kaya bakla na lang ang iibigin
kaya ngayon pakinggan nyu para sa inyo itong awitin
[CHORUS]
[V2]
hinanakit sa babae ang dahilan kung bakit
nagmahal ako ng tulad nya kahit sya ay pangit
at di na pinagkait at sa akin hindi lumapit
kaya hanggang ngayon virgin pa ang aking pwet
at alam ko namang wala akong kahati
di ko sya mabubuntis pagkat pareho kami ng are
grabe buong buhay nya ay sa akin binigay
lahat lahat kanyang inalay basta wag akong mawalay
di na kita iiwan kahit na ikay bakla
bastat tiwala mo sa akin singkil lang ng tala
at totoong relasyon natin ay parang ginto mahal kita
wag lang sana kong magkatulo
[CHORUS]
[V3]
nasulat ko ang kantang to dahil sa galit
pagkat sa tuwing nagmamahal puso koy napupunit
ginawa ko naman ang lahat sa kanya lang inilaan
binigay ang nais na luho patiya ay katawan
pero kapalit nito isa pa lang kataksilan
at nagawa pa niya na ko pagtawanan
kaya ngayon si lhenjack labis ang pagiyak
puso koy parang nasagasaan ng limang milyong truck
sa isip ko tumatak ang sakit na natamo
kaya nag disisyon tuloy ang puso na laging bigo
na bakla na lang ang iibigin ko
di na ko masasaktan nagka pera pa ako
[CHORUS]
[V4]
isang bakla ang iibigin habang buhay
sa kanya ko lang inalay ang puso kong makulay
sya ang nagbigay ng tawa at saya
pag ibig kong ito sa kanya lang lumigaya
kaysa sa gf ko na wala namang pake
nagmahal ako sa kanya ng walang silbe
kaya sa isang bakla ako ay nagmahal
kahit sa ibang girl pagibig ko ay matumal
kahit karumaldumal pa ang kanyang pagmumuka
basta wag lang nya kong gawing ka awa awa
kaya sa bigo sa mga babae dyan
umibig ng bakla nakakalat lang yan dyan
[CHORUS]
[V5]
ayoko ng umibig na kahit na sinu pa
kasi ako sayo ay ok nat akoy sayo na
bastat ang yong responsibility ay wag limutin
wala kang ibang gagawin kundi akoy pasayahin
ako sayo ay happy kasi lagi akong busog
hindi mo ako ginugutom cause takot kang pabugbug
sa buhay ko ikaw ang pumapapel na yaya
pero kahit ganun hindi pagpapalit sa iba
pero wag kang umasa na sakin ka makaisa
bago tayo magtabi sa kama mag paopera
o diba hitech tayo ay modern na lover
pagdumikit ka sakin sisigaw ako holdaper
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